Understandable You

You did well on growing your hair long, taking picture on your best dress, or even were great at being nothing. Some people get really many negative feedback when they do nothing in their life, but you are like born for it, you do nothing, and you expect everyone to like you, and they do like you, in a way that you might not understand, they like to have you around, you have fun, go back home late sharing to all of your friends about the wisdom you have learned. You are happy, but you are always longing for something worthwhile. So you sit back on your back seat of your car, you seek one of your best CDs that you have, you put it in.

It is not The Flaming Lips, it should not be.

But it is.

You are tired with all the mess you keep making, you are looking for something fun yet sophisticated, can be comprehended, explainable to everyone who is smart.

But you always be something you are always good at. And out of the blue you have a single thought that pops out, and whisper it quietly in your head, "maybe I can be what I wanna be, even though I might not be good at it, but I seriously can, it's just that people might not like me, people don't like people who are changeable, people ask something for stagnant, like constant state of happiness. But I never want to be consumed, I am not consumable, I am not one of resources of someone's happiness, I should not be. But people are stupid, so I guess I really have to quit".

You never ask for a correction, compliment, even a recognition, you are really full of pride. You wish just at this very moment, You could be simply found, and be understandable, until you finally can be understood.

It might take a little while. It will. It already took a little while for you to understand who you are. You are not them, you are not likeable nor loveable, and you no longer care.